Lonely Child to Mother in Faith

I wrote this on the previous post and am just now reading a word given to me in June 2016.


Somewhere between 9 and 11 years old I knew that I probably wouldn't have children.  Initially the reasons from my understanding were due to the pain, putting on weight and ultimately I thought, how can I love something that comes from my own body.  This was only because I felt so unloved myself and of so little value, so my weight was a focus and  coming from such poorness in love, how was I to love something that came from me?  I did sometimes say to myself that I will be the 'best Aunty' or maybe foster or adopt, but it depended on who I would marry.  I would also say that I would love others so that they never feel unloved the way that I did. At one point I asked the Lord to do whatever He wanted with me, including children. When saved I would say it is now up to my husband and I when we get married to decide if children were coming. That it wasn't just my decision. I wonder though now, that maybe it was the Lord's plan for me to not have my own children. I believe I have been healed from a lot. So at this time I can see in my life, through Christ, I will have children. Spiritual children.


The word is...


it was a prophetic evening and Bianca saw for me a lonely child and red dirt for the future. I said to David Reeves that the child was me. Then David spoke and said...


God is redeeming you and you will be a mother; a mother of faith to people. And God will give you people to love and give what you didn't have ( or you will give them what you didn't have) and you will love them and grow them.


When I heard this it rung so true as I know what was in my heart and what I have always said about children and loving people giving them what I never had, knowing how much it is needed!


I was so blessed hearing this and was teary. The red dirt, I have wondered whether I would go to the outback at some point. I love the outback and have seen glimpses of being in small churches that need Jesus!

Abraham builds an Altar

I'm reading more about Abram's journey and the promises given to him by God. Abram obeys God and leaves the land of Ur. Walking by faith to a place the Lord wants to give him and his descendants. God speaks saying 'this is the land' and Abram builds an altar there. But then due to a famine in the land Abram goes on to Egypt. Now I am not sure if he was suppose to do that? It seemed like the right idea? But, he had to lie about his wife. She went into the palace probably in preparation to be presented to Pharaoh. But God starts to send plagues upon Pharaoh to protect Sarai. When Pharaoh finds out Sarai is Abrams wife, he sends Abram and Sarai back out, and Pharaoh allows Abram to keep the wealth that he gave to him when he thought that Ab and Sar were siblings. Abram and all with him, journey back to where? To where the first altar was built, where God said 'I will give you this land' and here Abram calls on the name of the Lord again.

 

I think in this how God was in control. Even though they were in Egypt in odd circumstances, God's redemptive plan was still alive and His promise to Abram was going to take place.

 

I think about where I had journeyed off, sincerely wanting the will of God for my life, but then realizing where I was, wasn't such a good idea, and as I sought Christ and obeyed, I once again felt like my feet were in the right place. I learnt and gained things in the process even though that direction wasn't the right one for me.

 

I give glory to God, for although I am holding onto Him, He is more so, holding onto me, and I know that He will guide me to the promised land for His purposes. Sometimes people can think ahh, I've mucked it, it's over and out, but I say 'But God' But God!!!

 

Seek Him and ask for His directions. And as you move forward obey Him. Make good choices, operate in the right spirit. Walk and abide in Faith.

There's a Season and a Reason

 

I was thinking about this earlier today whilst walking.

That God takes us through seasons and in it, He's working out the reason.

(Not that He doesn't know the reason, but it's effect is being worked out in us).

To teach us, shape us, change us, grow us, to remove things, to instil things, to prepare things. He aligns people, uses circumstances, and we can trust Him with and in the process.

 

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:”  Eccl 3:1a

 

#Jesus  #growth  #trust   #Hispurposes   #life

 

 

Picture taken at Burleigh Beach

01  July  2016

FAITH

Quote:
The trial of Abraham's faith was that he
simply and fully obeyed the call of God.

 

Abraham went out by faith not knowing where he was going. He dwelled in the land of promise like a foreign country and.......
Heb 11:10 For he (Abraham) looked for a city which hath foundations, whose builder and maker is God.

 

This prompted me to think how sometimes we / I really want to know the big picture. God, where am I going what am I doing? And it is OK to ask. It is good to ask and to get insight, as we are encouraged to hear from God for direction.

 

But in this, I have to be at times reminded to trust, be faithful, be patient.

 

Even when Abraham got to the land of promise he dwelt there by faith.

 

I too am encouraged to dwell, live, walk by faith. To keep my eyes on Him. To live fully in my present position as I move onward in call and purpose. To be FAITHfilled obeying His direction and directive as I keep the perspective of eternity in my heart. And to remember in the process, to enter HIS rest.

 

He is LOVE.   Enter that REST

Jesus Christ - the author and finisher of our FAITH,
Who for the joy set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame
and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:2

Leave your baggage behind

During a group worship time this week I saw this picture.

It was of a person carrying an old suitcase. The person walks to the kerb and in a short moment a bus comes along. The person, 'leaves that old case on the kerb', gets on the bus with a looking forward not looking back. The doors shut, and the bus pulls away on to the next destination.

It was a picture where people can at times carry a bag holding things of the past and still be defined by them; shame, things that created pain, memory of sin, etc.

So, to me it was an encouragement for people in their journey with Jesus to leave those things behind. I love the word in Isaiah..."don't remember the former things, don't consider the things of old, behold I do a new thing" (Is 43:18).

Sometimes it seems hard to not pick up the old stuff again, and sometimes, to even let it go in the first place. But trust God's word when He says you are a new creation. Let Him do the work in you.

So if you are carrying some stuff, step into the freedom that is yours in Christ. Leave that old case there on the kerb.... don't look back and don't go pick it up again.

And for some help, some lyrics of an old song came to my thoughts as I wrote this..
If the enemy starts to remind you of your past (don't listen), you just remind him of his future.

(Carman - Revival in the Land).   :)

 

Encouragement - I am unlocking you!

Word of encouragement from Leon Bites.   06/2016

I heard the Spirit of the Lord say,

 

‘There is unlocked potential in you and promises spoken over you that have been unfulfilled. But see now ...that I am taking the keys and unlocking the dusty chest to release these things. You are going to form new skills and abilities that you never knew you had, even in areas that you struggle in, and promises once spoken over you are going to come to pass.’

 

This is a journey that He wants to take with you.

 

That you would sit with him when He opens the chest, to find the hidden potential together. And that you would co-work with God, to move and grow in these previously unknown abilities and know the promises that are going to be fulfilled.

 

For, just like a parent, God enjoys and loves seeing you thrive and do well with what you have. He wants to share in the joy with you as you rediscover yourself, and see blessings come into your life......Lion Bites

 

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This was an encouragement that I saw on my FB page and it spoke to me.  I can see the Lord doing things in my life now, and thankfully I am responding like I have not done in the past.  I am responding with FAITH, and with obedience more than fear.

 

I have been asked to facilitate and share with new Christians and people who have gone through tremendous tough times the foundational studies in God.  This is all wonderful but I have always felt like...

 

Moses:        'Lord, I can't speak'.

 

Jeramiah:    'Ah, Lord God! Behold, I cannot speak, for I am a youth'

 

even though Jeremiah used the reason for I am a youth I have only just now seen that reason.  All I could see were my reasons... reason's why I can't speak.  Why I am not qualified.

 

But God said to  Jeremiah:

 

"Do not say, 'I am a youth' (or I am this or that), For you shall go to all to whom I send you. And whatever I command you, you shall speak.  Do not be afraid of their faces, For I am with you to deliver you," says the Lord

 

But God said to  Joshua:

 

"Be strong and of good courage, Only be strong and of good courage, and finally...

Have I not commanded you, "Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go".

 

 

It must be the Lord as I am walking through the fear and stepping out in FAITH.  I prepare the lesson and each time I drive to the ministry centre I am praying, Lord, today, give me the anointing to teach, to speak, to comprehend and share what I know is in my heart and spirit.  Holy Spirit, speak through me the words that the class needs to hear and be encouraged with.

 

Last week, although I have notes as a guide it was important to asked myself, what do I know that is real to me on this topic, so that insight flows from my heart to the heart of those here.

 

So, at the end, as we were packing up I heard one of the guys say 'that was mad' but meaning GOOD.  And I thought, thank you God, thank you.  Thank you Holy Spirit.

 

I was reminded of a time (approx. yr 2002) when I was listening to a visiting speaker and in his sharing a scripture, I knew that God was speaking to me as I felt the fire of God from the top of my head to the tip of my toe and it sat on me for a short while.  I was emotionally moved and thought, God, what are you trying to tell me, and I believe that God was encouraging me way back then but it really has taken me all this time to really trust and put aside my own view of inadequacies.

 

1 Cor 2:1-5

And I, brethren, when I came to you, did not come with excellence of speech or of wisdom declaring to you the testimony of God, For I determined not to know anything among you except Jesus Christ and Him crucified.  I was with you in weakness, in fear, and in much trembling.  And my speech and my preaching were not with persuasive words of human wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.

 

I still am not sure what God is doing as I am not a natural teacher, but often God will use people where they are not necessarily 'natural' in, for His 'supernatural' purposes.  But, to be confident in who my God is and to know that I am a vessel.  To not be afraid of the faces, and to do my best, and if I fail... it is OK.  It is OK.  To trust God.  He is working.  He is doing something.  I know this is God leading me to this moment.  To let Go and Trust God.

 

Amen.